Hey, thanks for reaching out to us about this, it definitely isn’t an easy topic to discuss.
People can experience suicidal thoughts for a multitude of reasons.
Asking why you’re having these thoughts isn’t an easy question to answer, because everybody is dealing with their own struggles and have obstacles they need to overcome.
I have no way of telling what might be making you have these thoughts, because everybody who goes through this has their own personal reasons and circumstances that may be causing them to feel this way. Keep in mind that it isn’t uncommon for youth to have thoughts of suicide. Being a teenager can be tough, partly because this is the time when we’re changing and developing the most – mentally and physically. This is the time of our life when we start worrying more about peer pressure, grades, relationships and school. It can be when we experience new things for the very first time and be exposed to new environments and opportunities. With so many new aspects of life to think about, it’s normal to feel stressed, overwhelmed and drained at times. Sometimes, this can lead to individuals having suicidal thoughts.
Life isn’t easy, and it could be possible that you have a lot on your plate at the moment. I would recommend taking some time off from whatever commitments you many have in order to relax. Sometimes taking a step back and relaxing can help you think about everything more clearly. Taking care of yourself is extremely important, and this can be done in many different ways. You could put some time aside to take up a new hobby, or try a new activity. Meet up with friends and do things you enjoy doing in your spare time – anything to take your mind off things for a little while to help you cope with whatever’s weighing you down. This can include taking a walk, reading a book, writing your thoughts in a journal, watching a movie or taking a bath.
Having suicidal thoughts does not make you selfish. Having these thoughts can often make us aware of our internal struggles and the hardships in our life. Realizing that you may not be completely happy with your life can be hard and difficult to talk about, but it’s extremely important that you reach out to someone about it and receive support. You’ve done an amazing job by asking us about it – now I encourage you to take another step forward and find someone who can help you cope with your thoughts of suicide. Whether that’s a friend, a family member or a trusted adult, talking about it is often very beneficial.
Remember that you don’t have to go through this alone.
You could also take this to a counselor or a therapist. Of course, you are welcome to phone, text or chat with us through our online portal on the ConnecTeen website. We would love to talk with you and be there for you, if you need it. If you are in any immediate risk, please call 911 as they are the most immediate resource that can reach you right away if you need help now.